String quartet

Okay first off, Vitamin String Quartet, absolutely bloody amazing! Currently feeling overjoyed to http://www.youtube.com/user/VitaminStringQuartet#p/u/477/vCK6GGUEspM If you don't know the song, you might not be so overwhelmed with joy, but it still sounds overly happy :P
They are an amazing group and have some friggin' excellent covers. This discovery has actually made my week. I love you Goosey~

Speaking of bloody, I had my wisdom teeth out and all I can taste is, yep, blood. Yum yum yum. Kinda loses it's zang after the first day and just become eh >_<" I'm in little to no pain though :D Which is excellent! They talked it up to sound so scary. It's a little funny trying to eat without teeth though :P I have to gulp everything, which feels ridiculous and doesn't go down all that well. My mum is a legend though and has been blending up all the yummy meals x3! Last night I got mixed vege's, chicken steak and diane sauce mush :D Hahaha, it was amazing. I love my Mum (L)

Side note to the surgery, I have the funniest story; I was actually in hysterics over this at the time. Okay so here's the scene, I have a ridiculous needle phobia and some cool dude surfer nurse has just taken me into the operating room and put me on the table. I'm just chillin' y'know, waiting to be put to sleep, dreading the needle. A lady hooks up some wires and the pulse monitor on my finger, which I mistook for her trying to needle me. Another quick side note, I have a low pulse of like 50, and people are always like "You a really sporty person eh?" And Mum always laughs. Anyways I'm on the table, waiting, watching my pulse machine on 54, another nurse walks in "Don't worry Mitchell, the doctor will be in soon to put you to sleep :)" BEEP BEEP BEEP, watch the machine go spastic as my pulse goes jumps from 54 to 87 in a couple seconds :P I lost my shit and couldn't stop laughing, and then when the nurse was asking why I was laughing I was trying to explain the phobia and my pulse and whatnot, she didn't care. I still think it was hilarious.

Since I was expecting to be dead this weekend after the surgery, I took work off, and now I'm all fine :D So I get to go camping at the river with Dad and brother, so that should be tops :) Despite the couple huge assignments still lurking in the background, but eh, they can wait until the panic really sets in :P

And finally, http://www.youtube.com/user/VitaminStringQuartet#p/u/526/DsRKQFNvz_Y
OMFG! There are so many good ones, I've probably picked a couple bad ones to show case, but trust me they are amazing :D

Also, finally hit baseline with the ex status again, and thing's are starting to clear up again :) Which is nice. Bree makes me feel like such an awkward teenager again, it's weird because she makes me feel so shy and 'first relationship'y, but at the same time it's cute. I dunno, I'm looking forward to things, she makes me happy :) I love that feeling of slowly learning more and more about a person and that feeling as they slowly become more and more attached to you <3

I CAN'T WAIT UNTIL UNI IS OVER(!)
I'm living for the mass holidays atm :) It'll be amazing~

Gone forever

"I feel so, much better, now that you're gone forever, I tell myself, that I don't miss you at all. I'm not lying, denying, that I feel so much better, Now that you're gone forever."

In hindsight, I really don't know why I was so down in the dumps yesterday ^^" Just one of those days I guess. I burnt your letters and now you're gone, It's as simple as that.

Anyways, new and better day :D I've spent the day getting some homework out the way and I'm blindly optimistic about the future once again! Just got a message from a friend "The freezer at work broke again, so there are a-loooooooot of pizza's that are dead and need to be eaten by the end of today, free pizza at mine at 5." I have been waiting all week for that message :P haha!

Before I head off though, I just remembered a important fact I forgot to mention yesterday that heavily contributed to my emo yesterday. The all or nothing nursing course I want to get into next year, turns out it only has 90 places available. Rough as, If I don't get into this particular course, I think I'm going to consider giving up on university and get into mine work or something and sum up heaps of minor qualifications like my Dad has. Just that thought of my short term goal falling through has really shattered my fragile thoughts of the future. Planning your future is heavy stuff mans. Damn, phone rang and I lost my train of thought. Oh yeah, BLINDLY OPTIMISTIC!

Side note, I have so much homework to miraculously finish during my operation recovery it's not even funny. Should be a fun panic-y couple weeks ahead :P

~Blog post ended~

Such is life

-Oh you child, you silly boy,
Why do you care, why do you try?
The past is past, it's so far gone,
Curiosity kills, why won't you learn?
Memories don't fade, they're concreted forever,
So why do you sit just to stew and suffer?
That girl will not vanish, so oh what a pity,
Your lives are just lives, not meant for together,
So just keep forgetting and try to remember,
no matter what happens,
This can't last forever.
-

So it's that time again, end of holidays and time to actually get into some homework! So in the spirit of good procrastination, I thought I better write a status update first to clear my mind out.

I'm such an idiot sometimes, the bare bones of it all being that I continue to do things that cause me pain. Why do I do that? I could argue with anyone all day about what I'm feeling and the potential factors behind it and whatever' truths. Sometimes I just lay here and let myself separate from the world, and yet I still find myself feeling that longing for that cold empty feeling in my chest. I also hate those moments where you question life, not in a "Why am I alive?" But "What is a life, why are we alive?"

I don't even know where this post is going. I've woken up this morning with a ridiculous pounding headache that won't leave me alone, and I can't shake this weightless cold fluid feeling in my chest. Another one of those 'Just let me close my eyes and float away' days. I'm going UNDER THE KNIFE later this week, not quite so dramatically, but it'll be nice to rest for half a week before uni goes back.

So I better get all these assignments out the way before I go back to uni, I have a bad feeling about the rest of this year X_x" I really feel like I've just lost my motivation for life, I have no idea where I am, Where I'm going, where I want to go and Why I should go. Just gotta live this out I guess ^^" This stupid thing we call 'life'.

For the love of Koala's

Daez lyk cuddleh wittle beyhres an stff!

But seriously, it seems these updates are just for a good friends sake :P

Anywayyyyyyyyyyssss, Update is in order apparently!

Can't be bothered checking my last update, but, managed to disable myself in the last couple weeks by damaging me foot badly and fracturing my wrist. Both of which are currently still recovering :P And were caused from separate silly incidents xD

Have also given up the job search in the city for a little while, but I'll work something out come next year. I think I'm happy working my weekends away in the country :3 for now anyways.

Uni work has been flat out, on a completely different note, tried ice skating lessons, wasn't that great.

Had a revelation the other night, decided to delete facebook and start on a complete remodel of my lifestyle and whatnot :3 I really want to achieve some self goals and get my shite together I've decided. Eg Getting fit, studying more, doing better

Also been seeing an awesome ladeh whom I use to go to primary school with back in the day, she goes to my uni and knows some friends, crazy! Anyways, she's pretty and talkative and really pretty and has an interesting back story. I'm happy to have started getting a connection with someone again and hopefully something good will come of it :) Can't say much more on it for now xP Because I think some things still need to be sorted out xD Seems I'm pretty bad at solidifying relationship status's :P

Still procrastinating, Exercised, learnt some more guitar and am now blogging, time to actually start my homework ^^"

Night Peep(s) :D

Quick update

KFC interview was unsuccessful, hoping for work at a supermarket through the week
Doing a statistics assignment atm, not feeling so overwhelmed anymore, getting there with my uni work
Teakwondo is fun as. Finally getting to sparring, learnt my lesson about kicking towards the back of the body. Elbows are bad for your feet; mine hurts like a %(*#&
I'm feeling a little lonely tonight. Really just craving some human contact~
Tonight is a light grey, cloudy starless night. Beautiful as. I was flustered from TKW, so it was nice outside for me and a nice cool breeze with a little spitting rain. The most epic, All I need right now is a girl to hold my hand and have a kiss in the rain to know I'm not alone moment.
Also realising how little sleep I'm going to get this week. Concert Friday night, then a 10 hour shift Saturday morning. HOT CHOCOLATE FUDGE.
Also had a pretty rad day at uni today. Lack of work, exploring the river Torrens. I could sleep my life away there on the riverbank~

Concluding:
"I'm lost in the moment, where the tide embraces me. Where I fall into the ri-ver and set sail towards the seas~" (8)

The triumpet return of the sun

For it has returned! Flooding the city with it's glorious warmth and vitamin C!
And UV-rays and other DNA damaging radiation :3 Huzzah!

So yus, this is an update! Since last post I have uni'd and then worked some more, Kind of getting to know a new ladeh friend, and now back to uni again :P I'm really excited for the weekend again x3 I'm starting to get really sick of uni actually, not in a "I'ma quit because it's boring and layme!" But just in a "I much prefer working in a shop and making money :)" Kind of way xP

HIGHLIGHTS!
I finally got an email back from KFC :3 Interview and whatnot, meaning a potential job to have through the week nights and the potential to earn more moneh! :D Yay!
I'm hoping I get the job by default since they took like a week and a half longer than they said they would to get back to me >_>" Also, I have a nice shirt and jeans thankfully, but I'm lacking awesome interview shoes and flashy black pants the ultimate impression D:! Also, I'm going to have to spray my fringe out my eyes .__." Incase they find the slight eye fringe insulting and making me un-hire-able :P Anyways the interview is in a few days later this week, so should be exciting :3 and nerve racking.

Another couple things, First off, emotional confusion and decision making! As previous mentioned, making a new friend whom I have known and worked with for ages :3 she's really awesome now that we've actually started to chat. Awkwardly invited her to the movies to join me with a friend, so her friend came and it was a bit awkward apparently xD Saw inception, OMFG AMAZING!!!! THE WORLD WILL NEVER BE THE SAME EVER AGAIN!!! But yeah it was pretty good :3 Spent the rest of that day watching more movies with my friend, later ended up briefly going to see the new girl at her uncles 40th birthday bash on her property :P That was also awkward, but I got a "Maybe we can hang next weekend and it will be awesome and non awkward! :)" So yeah, I dunno ^^" So much I can blurt and spill and unleash my mental mess and whatnot, but I'll just leave it at starting to meet a new person for now :3

Second, Complete LOLZ. Had my statistics tute again, this time with the actual lecturer. A: the class was less than half the size it was during the first week xD and B: I spent the majority of the lesson fighting hysterics and grinning like a fool :P She was trying to explain the correlation of two variables on a graph, To you chums who did maths studies in year 12, this is the r^2 value of a scatter plot of data. Measuring how close they resemble a linear relationship. ANYWAYS she tried to explain by putting a ruler on the projection paper to explain what she meant, this covered half the projection and didn't work :P So she got out her texter and drew a line through the data on the projection, and then she realised the projection was on the wall, not on the white board. It was a massive line too xD The class was laughing and I was like hysterical .__." Bawling and choking on my withheld crazy laughing. I hate hysterical laughter X.x" Every time I thought About it, i'd laugh more and more. In the end put my headphones in and continued taking notes to calm me down :P I still grin stupidly thinking about that moment. Hilarious.

Anywho, I have my mate Jackson down for the week :3 so that's pretty cool also.

Off to study and do some errands and whatnot now~Until next time guiz! :D

Give me envy,

Give me malice, give me your a-ttention!
Give me envy give me malice baby give me a break!
♫ ♫ ♫ ♫ ♫ ♫ ♫ ♫ ♫ ♫ ♫
Panic! at the disco are such an interesting band :P Sometimes I just wish I could sing so I could sing fast paced catchy songs like some of theirs ^^
Tonight I'm in an incredibly musical mood~ I accidentally ripped my head phones in half the other day D: and subsequently went half a day without my music. Left me a little mentally damaged I think :P Realised how much I live with my music in the background~ It's so calming :) Although it's the equivalent of locking myself away for the day and doing nothing :P Since all I do all day is play songs to myself instead of everything else ^^" Whoops.

So yes, This is yet another late night update :P I'm actually avoiding my chemistry homework :3 I promise I'll get into my homework hardcore starting from this friday though~

But yeah, anyways :P The mystery girl from statistics ended up adding me on facebook ^^ She turned out to be full blown country girl from Mildura who loves her horses :P Pretty interesting lass actually ^^ She seems like a very fun person, just that kind of always laughing and mucking around person :P Turns out she 'Has a boyfriend' though, apparently, but that's a completely different can on potatoes! :P I'm just glad to meet a new and interesting person

Having met someone new, I experienced the whole OMG I NOTICE NOW thing all day. I saw her in almost ALL my classes and numerously around the uni .__." It's so crazy how stuff like that works.

Added more awesome to my room, and it is now more awesome 8D I'm really starting to love my new room :)

Also, finally sorted whatever minor ex issues I had going ^^ Pretty sure I have all that under control now, So I'm pretty happy with life and everything in general :D Which is good~ Although I'm actually a little fearful about getting a job now .__." I might be hell'a lazy atm, but I'm a little concerned about how much work I'll get done if I get a week job as well D:

Speaking of which, dunno if it's in my last blog, but redid my resume and all the other day because It turns out I made a mistake on my resume with my email address :S Just as well I guess haha! But yeah, I felt so stupid X.x"

But ah, yessum :3 I'm feeling really social lately, seeing people and getting myself out there ^^ It feels good, think I might have to switch it up a bit for study soon though :P

And yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, Should probably do some of this chem now :P Night readers!~

Reasons to be proud to be a statician #2

We are mean lovers.

Another pretty lame statistics joke, but I liked this one alot more than the first one xP Not that I can remember it, but this one was so much funnier :P

But yeah, second week into uni and this is the week I'm going to start getting into everything :D Got back to the gym today, starting taek won do tomorrow night, hopefully chasing down a couple more jobs tomorrow also, and generally getting my study on and getting into it 8D

So far the work has been pretty interesting and not as bad as I feared :P Psychology has been AMAZING with the content .__." Today we learnt about Humanistic theories and social learning, spectacular stuff. Although they are right with the criticism that "It's more of a motivation speech than an actual theory", pretty spot on but omg is it motivating xD It's basically just saying "Everyone can do anything they want, everyone can change, people follow the heirachy and be happy!" x3 Great lecture though.

Which was followed by the most frustrating 50 minutes of my life. Statistics tutorial, you rock up, shut up, take notes, watch them do the questions. Instead it turned out to be a debate between a bunch of idiots and some nerd about whether "Shoe sizes found in the store David Jones" are a categorical or quantitative statistic. Last time I went into detail about idiot question-eers in my class, I confused a friend deeply xP So I'll just leave it at it was tragically frustrating and if you have to use "But" or "What if" when asking a question, you are better off just shutting up -____-

The tutor was actually a very young appearing gentleman who seemed to find the debate amusing and kept them going >_<" Stating that "If we think they are wrong, maybe we should justify our view as well", which sparked the nerd who was making it sound so complex and urging them on @_@ In an attempt to shut them up I just asking "Is this the answer?" and said the actual answer, which in itself was so embarrassing because this debate has already been going for 10 minutes. The tutor replied "Whoaaaa, slow down dude, we still haven't finished deciding whether it's a category or a number yet :P" And he let it continue for another 15 minutes X____x

My answer turned out to be right too >___<" I was so frustrated. The idiots never finished it because it got awkward after they all started yelling over each other and the people in the back screamed to move on xD

In the same lecture, I also got the approval of some bored as looking chick sitting behind me :P Had short chats with her during the tute, she's going vet, so I think I came across as pretty stupid ^^" But anyways, she was cute and seemed nice :3 So after introducing myself as he concluded, I handed my number and name to her with a "if you ever want to catch up some time" as she left. I don't think I have ever been so nervous in my life. My hands were sweating so bad, which has never happened .__." and It was so hard to write because they wouldn't stop shaking X.x And the mega blushy blush stammering. Don't think I'll be getting a message back xD Lmao, but oh well :P It was an interesting attempt xP I felt a little proud. Pity I was freaking out :P

But yeah, that's my interesting story for the day xP

Anyways I better go grab some tea so I can go see a friend for a catch up :P PS, trackies are sooooooo comfortable ._____. Bought a pair for gym and won-do, haven't wore a pair since like year 7. Omg comfy~ So daggy for casual wear though xD

Peace ya'll~

It is what it is.

Universal saying of the worlddddddd~

But seriously, sometimes I feel like I need to step back and take control of things before I get carried away.. It is what it is, and sometimes it's good to acknowledge you are setting yourself up to be hurt. Avoiding hurt is always pretty hurtful, but you just need to trust in your judgments and remember that even now, it is what it is.

So yeah, my second day off uni for the first week back :P Was pretty sweet, although unfortunately this will become a pretty full on day come the following weeks. 4 hours of straight chem X___X! Brain death day. But yeah, after spending the last two nights staying up extremely late (Which I still don't regret.), I had an epic sleep in today before my parents came around to rearrange my room and add some new and decent furniture to it. I've lost my epic double bed which turned out to just make me feel lonely :P And 'downgraded' to my actual bed from my country home which is a measly kind single xP It feels so good to feel my bed bed again~ But that means I'll now have the slightly less comfortable bed back in the country though when I go back, bugger :P
But yeah, ANYWAYS, new awesome room with it's new furniture and more spaceyness ^^ Feels a lot more homey now~ just need to get some photos to put on my huge pin up board :P (Inspired by Miranda's awesome uni room) and some posters cranking round my room and it'll be awesome :)

Comedy of the day: Mum forgetting all of the actual bedding for my bed .__." So I get to sleep in my sleeping bag tonight, which I have started conveniently carrying with me in my car just in case xP Seems to be paying off already :P haha. Here's hoping I don't freeze tonight or dissolve in a bag of sweat X.x" since it's always one or the other. Oh yeah, hope i Don't slip off my bed either :P Seeing as the mattress and bag are pretty anti friction-y together xP

But yeah, I have a current craving for mate-ship (like, mates mates xP Not a 'mate' lmao ^^") and some cider :3 Pity I can't be uni barring tomorrow since I have to drive to skating, FARKYEAH SKATING 8D Oh how I miss it~

Also starting next week I plan on getting back into the gym and hopefully starting some teak won do ^^ I miss being flexible and sparring so much :P They did an amazing demo of it at the uni's 'open club day' D: Wish I could awesome spin head kick~~ But yeah, that would be wicked ^^ Also hoping for some word back on jobs.If not, more hunting on Tuesday ^^

Anyways, early night for uni tomorrow~ See you guiz (Y)

GAHHHHSKKKRASFFFSKKKK

GODDAMN MUTANT DEMON POSSUMS HAVING GANG WARS ACROSS MY YARD

Seriously though, creepy monstrous sounding things .__." heard them the last couple nights, might just be the one, but y'know, they sound multiple with their creepy noises xD

Anyways it's pretty late, stayed up watching a facebook dilema about a friend, and then had to reply to the what-I-thought-was-going-to-be-riskier email :P Yay for mature conversations and awesome friends ^^

On an even better note, NO UNI TOMORROW! :D Hell'a cheering, gonna go job hunting. Heard the food places around the corner may have night fill, so that would be amazing ^^

Uni Schmooni

I completely forgot how mind deathing uni wasssssss~

Otherwise, not particularly enthused to be back at uni ^^" Like, all the work just looked boring as anything, might as well have been watching paint dry all day :P

However, I feel I may be suffering from a bout of awesome 8D Don'tcha just love the moods when you just feel like you are a rock god and you rule the world? xD
Don't lie, you all have those days :P

PS, Risky messages are risky~

Sleepless nights and crimson skies

So as the title suggest, I can't sleep tonight. Coincidentally, I don't think I've ever been so angry in my life. But that's not an issue for this blog; Haha.

So yeah, not being able to sleep I find myself just sitting there staring out the window of my city home. What do I see? A crimson sky, Yeah I know right; I also laughed at that coincidence. Although it's much more likely it's due to light pollution or dust or something; looks pretty sick either way. It's particularly soothing sitting here in this lonely house looking out to the dark red night sky.. Doesn't make my head stop hurting though; so I thought blogging might help!

After writing all the above though.. I'm not sure what else I should be writing ^^" But while thinking about how I have nothing to write, It reminded me how pretty my blog is; isn't it pretty? xD That makes me happy, It just looks so cool; and it's mine.

Onto less soul crushing text though; uni is almost back. The weekend and then it will all be back into full swing, All the study and life prioritizing that I must try and sort~ Makes my head hurt a little more to think about :P Which also reminded me having mentioned the weekend, it's a Friday night and I'm blogging; Depressing. Hahahaha! But not really, because I have a big weekend ahead. Convention tomorrow with some friends, leaving early to take a friend home so she doesn't get into strife on public transport :P Then working on Sunday and getting general stuff organized! Should be enough to keep me busy ^^

OMG! I also realized today how absent I've become lately.. I've made some poor decisions and all, but today while parking my car in my backyard, which might I add is pretty challenging at the best of times. ANYWAY, I hit a post due to absence and misjudgment D: Another battle scar to my poor car, only this one is a bit bigger, and inverted on my cars paneling.. Needless to say I felt pretty damn shit after that. I think I worry my parents a bit like that sometimes..

Hey, my room mate just got home; he's pretty cool. I'd go greet him a little more, but I'm not in the mood for a d&m or general chat. I'm just hoping I'll be able to sleep a bit better after this..

Just thought to take some Panadol, hopefully that helps this whole situation, but honestly; the sky is still red. Crazyyyyy~

I really hope this whole new 'broken' feeling is just a phase though. Because I actually feel lesser compared to how I use to feel, and let's be honest, that just isn't a good way to go through life! Haha, seriously though, Get back to normal me D: I just need to forget her completely and then maybe I'll be able to get better
DISTRACTION! Ice skating, went today with a uni friend. It was a school day though and there was like nobody there at all .__." Like 10 people tops on the ice at any given time. It was crazy fun~ And the ice hockey team was out practicing for a bit, so that was fun to watch. Hahaha-MG, the coach was a chick, and we almost died when she came out the change rooms in high heels and the whole get up. As my lesbian uni friend kindly pointed out, she was an absolute babe xP It was hilarious actually. Ice skating is such an amazing feeling :) Pity it hurts my feet so much xP Not that they have been feeling the best lately D:

You know what sucks, genetics. My Dad was crossed over teeth, my teeth are all starting to cross over and destroying my 'perfect smile' D:! It's just annoying that something like that slowly happens because of genetics and there is nothing I can do about it. My Mum has horribly bad foot pain which she can like only correct with surgery which she has been avoiding. Lately my feet have been starting to go through phases of this extreme pain X.x I think it may be related to Mums foot pain. Evidence posted; Genetics are shit. The actual biological topic isn't so hot either ^^" Hated it, even though I thought I would love it.

Anyways I think I should probably try head off to sleep now, I do need a good nights sleep for tomorrow. Should be a fun day~

Final thoughts for the night. I can't wait to be in a better state of mind and have a young blossoming romance again ♥ Someone to take my hand when all I need is someone to hold onto, someone to peck because I need the attention, someone to cuddle close and remove the space that makes me feel alone. Someone to talk to, go places with, laugh with, share this big lonely bed with and a smile to fall in love with every day ♥

I will find you one day.

Cloudy skies and wishful thoughts

This post marks the start of my new blog, as I thought this fresh start deserves a fresh blog.

It's been a crazy month of holidays while breaking from university and many things have changed. It's with these changes that I've decided to make a new start with things, university, work, housing and general lifestyle.

So far the plan is to see out the first year of my Bachelor of science degree, find a job in the city and start becoming more self supportive, eventually quit my current job in the country and just embrace this city life. I'm going to try juggle city work, university life and hopefully a social life and just become a stronger and new person..

The holidays have given me a lot to think about and I feel I'm prepared to make the city my permanent home and take a shot at this new life and make the most of everything that comes my way.

Pretty nervous, and it's not guaranteed that all of this will take flight, but here's hoping for a smooth new start and successful finish to my first year of university!

I'm not content with the person I am, this time I'm going to take the steps to change for the better; and attempt to blog more!