Sleepless nights and crimson skies

So as the title suggest, I can't sleep tonight. Coincidentally, I don't think I've ever been so angry in my life. But that's not an issue for this blog; Haha.

So yeah, not being able to sleep I find myself just sitting there staring out the window of my city home. What do I see? A crimson sky, Yeah I know right; I also laughed at that coincidence. Although it's much more likely it's due to light pollution or dust or something; looks pretty sick either way. It's particularly soothing sitting here in this lonely house looking out to the dark red night sky.. Doesn't make my head stop hurting though; so I thought blogging might help!

After writing all the above though.. I'm not sure what else I should be writing ^^" But while thinking about how I have nothing to write, It reminded me how pretty my blog is; isn't it pretty? xD That makes me happy, It just looks so cool; and it's mine.

Onto less soul crushing text though; uni is almost back. The weekend and then it will all be back into full swing, All the study and life prioritizing that I must try and sort~ Makes my head hurt a little more to think about :P Which also reminded me having mentioned the weekend, it's a Friday night and I'm blogging; Depressing. Hahahaha! But not really, because I have a big weekend ahead. Convention tomorrow with some friends, leaving early to take a friend home so she doesn't get into strife on public transport :P Then working on Sunday and getting general stuff organized! Should be enough to keep me busy ^^

OMG! I also realized today how absent I've become lately.. I've made some poor decisions and all, but today while parking my car in my backyard, which might I add is pretty challenging at the best of times. ANYWAY, I hit a post due to absence and misjudgment D: Another battle scar to my poor car, only this one is a bit bigger, and inverted on my cars paneling.. Needless to say I felt pretty damn shit after that. I think I worry my parents a bit like that sometimes..

Hey, my room mate just got home; he's pretty cool. I'd go greet him a little more, but I'm not in the mood for a d&m or general chat. I'm just hoping I'll be able to sleep a bit better after this..

Just thought to take some Panadol, hopefully that helps this whole situation, but honestly; the sky is still red. Crazyyyyy~

I really hope this whole new 'broken' feeling is just a phase though. Because I actually feel lesser compared to how I use to feel, and let's be honest, that just isn't a good way to go through life! Haha, seriously though, Get back to normal me D: I just need to forget her completely and then maybe I'll be able to get better
DISTRACTION! Ice skating, went today with a uni friend. It was a school day though and there was like nobody there at all .__." Like 10 people tops on the ice at any given time. It was crazy fun~ And the ice hockey team was out practicing for a bit, so that was fun to watch. Hahaha-MG, the coach was a chick, and we almost died when she came out the change rooms in high heels and the whole get up. As my lesbian uni friend kindly pointed out, she was an absolute babe xP It was hilarious actually. Ice skating is such an amazing feeling :) Pity it hurts my feet so much xP Not that they have been feeling the best lately D:

You know what sucks, genetics. My Dad was crossed over teeth, my teeth are all starting to cross over and destroying my 'perfect smile' D:! It's just annoying that something like that slowly happens because of genetics and there is nothing I can do about it. My Mum has horribly bad foot pain which she can like only correct with surgery which she has been avoiding. Lately my feet have been starting to go through phases of this extreme pain X.x I think it may be related to Mums foot pain. Evidence posted; Genetics are shit. The actual biological topic isn't so hot either ^^" Hated it, even though I thought I would love it.

Anyways I think I should probably try head off to sleep now, I do need a good nights sleep for tomorrow. Should be a fun day~

Final thoughts for the night. I can't wait to be in a better state of mind and have a young blossoming romance again ♥ Someone to take my hand when all I need is someone to hold onto, someone to peck because I need the attention, someone to cuddle close and remove the space that makes me feel alone. Someone to talk to, go places with, laugh with, share this big lonely bed with and a smile to fall in love with every day ♥

I will find you one day.