It is what it is.

Universal saying of the worlddddddd~

But seriously, sometimes I feel like I need to step back and take control of things before I get carried away.. It is what it is, and sometimes it's good to acknowledge you are setting yourself up to be hurt. Avoiding hurt is always pretty hurtful, but you just need to trust in your judgments and remember that even now, it is what it is.

So yeah, my second day off uni for the first week back :P Was pretty sweet, although unfortunately this will become a pretty full on day come the following weeks. 4 hours of straight chem X___X! Brain death day. But yeah, after spending the last two nights staying up extremely late (Which I still don't regret.), I had an epic sleep in today before my parents came around to rearrange my room and add some new and decent furniture to it. I've lost my epic double bed which turned out to just make me feel lonely :P And 'downgraded' to my actual bed from my country home which is a measly kind single xP It feels so good to feel my bed bed again~ But that means I'll now have the slightly less comfortable bed back in the country though when I go back, bugger :P
But yeah, ANYWAYS, new awesome room with it's new furniture and more spaceyness ^^ Feels a lot more homey now~ just need to get some photos to put on my huge pin up board :P (Inspired by Miranda's awesome uni room) and some posters cranking round my room and it'll be awesome :)

Comedy of the day: Mum forgetting all of the actual bedding for my bed .__." So I get to sleep in my sleeping bag tonight, which I have started conveniently carrying with me in my car just in case xP Seems to be paying off already :P haha. Here's hoping I don't freeze tonight or dissolve in a bag of sweat X.x" since it's always one or the other. Oh yeah, hope i Don't slip off my bed either :P Seeing as the mattress and bag are pretty anti friction-y together xP

But yeah, I have a current craving for mate-ship (like, mates mates xP Not a 'mate' lmao ^^") and some cider :3 Pity I can't be uni barring tomorrow since I have to drive to skating, FARKYEAH SKATING 8D Oh how I miss it~

Also starting next week I plan on getting back into the gym and hopefully starting some teak won do ^^ I miss being flexible and sparring so much :P They did an amazing demo of it at the uni's 'open club day' D: Wish I could awesome spin head kick~~ But yeah, that would be wicked ^^ Also hoping for some word back on jobs.If not, more hunting on Tuesday ^^

Anyways, early night for uni tomorrow~ See you guiz (Y)

GAHHHHSKKKRASFFFSKKKK

GODDAMN MUTANT DEMON POSSUMS HAVING GANG WARS ACROSS MY YARD

Seriously though, creepy monstrous sounding things .__." heard them the last couple nights, might just be the one, but y'know, they sound multiple with their creepy noises xD

Anyways it's pretty late, stayed up watching a facebook dilema about a friend, and then had to reply to the what-I-thought-was-going-to-be-riskier email :P Yay for mature conversations and awesome friends ^^

On an even better note, NO UNI TOMORROW! :D Hell'a cheering, gonna go job hunting. Heard the food places around the corner may have night fill, so that would be amazing ^^

Uni Schmooni

I completely forgot how mind deathing uni wasssssss~

Otherwise, not particularly enthused to be back at uni ^^" Like, all the work just looked boring as anything, might as well have been watching paint dry all day :P

However, I feel I may be suffering from a bout of awesome 8D Don'tcha just love the moods when you just feel like you are a rock god and you rule the world? xD
Don't lie, you all have those days :P

PS, Risky messages are risky~

Sleepless nights and crimson skies

So as the title suggest, I can't sleep tonight. Coincidentally, I don't think I've ever been so angry in my life. But that's not an issue for this blog; Haha.

So yeah, not being able to sleep I find myself just sitting there staring out the window of my city home. What do I see? A crimson sky, Yeah I know right; I also laughed at that coincidence. Although it's much more likely it's due to light pollution or dust or something; looks pretty sick either way. It's particularly soothing sitting here in this lonely house looking out to the dark red night sky.. Doesn't make my head stop hurting though; so I thought blogging might help!

After writing all the above though.. I'm not sure what else I should be writing ^^" But while thinking about how I have nothing to write, It reminded me how pretty my blog is; isn't it pretty? xD That makes me happy, It just looks so cool; and it's mine.

Onto less soul crushing text though; uni is almost back. The weekend and then it will all be back into full swing, All the study and life prioritizing that I must try and sort~ Makes my head hurt a little more to think about :P Which also reminded me having mentioned the weekend, it's a Friday night and I'm blogging; Depressing. Hahahaha! But not really, because I have a big weekend ahead. Convention tomorrow with some friends, leaving early to take a friend home so she doesn't get into strife on public transport :P Then working on Sunday and getting general stuff organized! Should be enough to keep me busy ^^

OMG! I also realized today how absent I've become lately.. I've made some poor decisions and all, but today while parking my car in my backyard, which might I add is pretty challenging at the best of times. ANYWAY, I hit a post due to absence and misjudgment D: Another battle scar to my poor car, only this one is a bit bigger, and inverted on my cars paneling.. Needless to say I felt pretty damn shit after that. I think I worry my parents a bit like that sometimes..

Hey, my room mate just got home; he's pretty cool. I'd go greet him a little more, but I'm not in the mood for a d&m or general chat. I'm just hoping I'll be able to sleep a bit better after this..

Just thought to take some Panadol, hopefully that helps this whole situation, but honestly; the sky is still red. Crazyyyyy~

I really hope this whole new 'broken' feeling is just a phase though. Because I actually feel lesser compared to how I use to feel, and let's be honest, that just isn't a good way to go through life! Haha, seriously though, Get back to normal me D: I just need to forget her completely and then maybe I'll be able to get better
DISTRACTION! Ice skating, went today with a uni friend. It was a school day though and there was like nobody there at all .__." Like 10 people tops on the ice at any given time. It was crazy fun~ And the ice hockey team was out practicing for a bit, so that was fun to watch. Hahaha-MG, the coach was a chick, and we almost died when she came out the change rooms in high heels and the whole get up. As my lesbian uni friend kindly pointed out, she was an absolute babe xP It was hilarious actually. Ice skating is such an amazing feeling :) Pity it hurts my feet so much xP Not that they have been feeling the best lately D:

You know what sucks, genetics. My Dad was crossed over teeth, my teeth are all starting to cross over and destroying my 'perfect smile' D:! It's just annoying that something like that slowly happens because of genetics and there is nothing I can do about it. My Mum has horribly bad foot pain which she can like only correct with surgery which she has been avoiding. Lately my feet have been starting to go through phases of this extreme pain X.x I think it may be related to Mums foot pain. Evidence posted; Genetics are shit. The actual biological topic isn't so hot either ^^" Hated it, even though I thought I would love it.

Anyways I think I should probably try head off to sleep now, I do need a good nights sleep for tomorrow. Should be a fun day~

Final thoughts for the night. I can't wait to be in a better state of mind and have a young blossoming romance again ♥ Someone to take my hand when all I need is someone to hold onto, someone to peck because I need the attention, someone to cuddle close and remove the space that makes me feel alone. Someone to talk to, go places with, laugh with, share this big lonely bed with and a smile to fall in love with every day ♥

I will find you one day.

Cloudy skies and wishful thoughts

This post marks the start of my new blog, as I thought this fresh start deserves a fresh blog.

It's been a crazy month of holidays while breaking from university and many things have changed. It's with these changes that I've decided to make a new start with things, university, work, housing and general lifestyle.

So far the plan is to see out the first year of my Bachelor of science degree, find a job in the city and start becoming more self supportive, eventually quit my current job in the country and just embrace this city life. I'm going to try juggle city work, university life and hopefully a social life and just become a stronger and new person..

The holidays have given me a lot to think about and I feel I'm prepared to make the city my permanent home and take a shot at this new life and make the most of everything that comes my way.

Pretty nervous, and it's not guaranteed that all of this will take flight, but here's hoping for a smooth new start and successful finish to my first year of university!

I'm not content with the person I am, this time I'm going to take the steps to change for the better; and attempt to blog more!