"I feel so, much better, now that you're gone forever, I tell myself, that I don't miss you at all. I'm not lying, denying, that I feel so much better, Now that you're gone forever."
In hindsight, I really don't know why I was so down in the dumps yesterday ^^" Just one of those days I guess. I burnt your letters and now you're gone, It's as simple as that.
Anyways, new and better day :D I've spent the day getting some homework out the way and I'm blindly optimistic about the future once again! Just got a message from a friend "The freezer at work broke again, so there are a-loooooooot of pizza's that are dead and need to be eaten by the end of today, free pizza at mine at 5." I have been waiting all week for that message :P haha!
Before I head off though, I just remembered a important fact I forgot to mention yesterday that heavily contributed to my emo yesterday. The all or nothing nursing course I want to get into next year, turns out it only has 90 places available. Rough as, If I don't get into this particular course, I think I'm going to consider giving up on university and get into mine work or something and sum up heaps of minor qualifications like my Dad has. Just that thought of my short term goal falling through has really shattered my fragile thoughts of the future. Planning your future is heavy stuff mans. Damn, phone rang and I lost my train of thought. Oh yeah, BLINDLY OPTIMISTIC!
Side note, I have so much homework to miraculously finish during my operation recovery it's not even funny. Should be a fun panic-y couple weeks ahead :P
~Blog post ended~
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Sunday, September 26, 2010
Such is life
-Oh you child, you silly boy,
Why do you care, why do you try?
The past is past, it's so far gone,
Curiosity kills, why won't you learn?
Memories don't fade, they're concreted forever,
So why do you sit just to stew and suffer?
That girl will not vanish, so oh what a pity,
Your lives are just lives, not meant for together,
So just keep forgetting and try to remember,
no matter what happens,
This can't last forever.
-
So it's that time again, end of holidays and time to actually get into some homework! So in the spirit of good procrastination, I thought I better write a status update first to clear my mind out.
I'm such an idiot sometimes, the bare bones of it all being that I continue to do things that cause me pain. Why do I do that? I could argue with anyone all day about what I'm feeling and the potential factors behind it and whatever' truths. Sometimes I just lay here and let myself separate from the world, and yet I still find myself feeling that longing for that cold empty feeling in my chest. I also hate those moments where you question life, not in a "Why am I alive?" But "What is a life, why are we alive?"
I don't even know where this post is going. I've woken up this morning with a ridiculous pounding headache that won't leave me alone, and I can't shake this weightless cold fluid feeling in my chest. Another one of those 'Just let me close my eyes and float away' days. I'm going UNDER THE KNIFE later this week, not quite so dramatically, but it'll be nice to rest for half a week before uni goes back.
So I better get all these assignments out the way before I go back to uni, I have a bad feeling about the rest of this year X_x" I really feel like I've just lost my motivation for life, I have no idea where I am, Where I'm going, where I want to go and Why I should go. Just gotta live this out I guess ^^" This stupid thing we call 'life'.
Why do you care, why do you try?
The past is past, it's so far gone,
Curiosity kills, why won't you learn?
Memories don't fade, they're concreted forever,
So why do you sit just to stew and suffer?
That girl will not vanish, so oh what a pity,
Your lives are just lives, not meant for together,
So just keep forgetting and try to remember,
no matter what happens,
This can't last forever.
-
So it's that time again, end of holidays and time to actually get into some homework! So in the spirit of good procrastination, I thought I better write a status update first to clear my mind out.
I'm such an idiot sometimes, the bare bones of it all being that I continue to do things that cause me pain. Why do I do that? I could argue with anyone all day about what I'm feeling and the potential factors behind it and whatever' truths. Sometimes I just lay here and let myself separate from the world, and yet I still find myself feeling that longing for that cold empty feeling in my chest. I also hate those moments where you question life, not in a "Why am I alive?" But "What is a life, why are we alive?"
I don't even know where this post is going. I've woken up this morning with a ridiculous pounding headache that won't leave me alone, and I can't shake this weightless cold fluid feeling in my chest. Another one of those 'Just let me close my eyes and float away' days. I'm going UNDER THE KNIFE later this week, not quite so dramatically, but it'll be nice to rest for half a week before uni goes back.
So I better get all these assignments out the way before I go back to uni, I have a bad feeling about the rest of this year X_x" I really feel like I've just lost my motivation for life, I have no idea where I am, Where I'm going, where I want to go and Why I should go. Just gotta live this out I guess ^^" This stupid thing we call 'life'.
Monday, September 13, 2010
For the love of Koala's
Daez lyk cuddleh wittle beyhres an stff!
But seriously, it seems these updates are just for a good friends sake :P
Anywayyyyyyyyyyssss, Update is in order apparently!
Can't be bothered checking my last update, but, managed to disable myself in the last couple weeks by damaging me foot badly and fracturing my wrist. Both of which are currently still recovering :P And were caused from separate silly incidents xD
Have also given up the job search in the city for a little while, but I'll work something out come next year. I think I'm happy working my weekends away in the country :3 for now anyways.
Uni work has been flat out, on a completely different note, tried ice skating lessons, wasn't that great.
Had a revelation the other night, decided to delete facebook and start on a complete remodel of my lifestyle and whatnot :3 I really want to achieve some self goals and get my shite together I've decided. Eg Getting fit, studying more, doing better
Also been seeing an awesome ladeh whom I use to go to primary school with back in the day, she goes to my uni and knows some friends, crazy! Anyways, she's pretty and talkative and really pretty and has an interesting back story. I'm happy to have started getting a connection with someone again and hopefully something good will come of it :) Can't say much more on it for now xP Because I think some things still need to be sorted out xD Seems I'm pretty bad at solidifying relationship status's :P
Still procrastinating, Exercised, learnt some more guitar and am now blogging, time to actually start my homework ^^"
Night Peep(s) :D
But seriously, it seems these updates are just for a good friends sake :P
Anywayyyyyyyyyyssss, Update is in order apparently!
Can't be bothered checking my last update, but, managed to disable myself in the last couple weeks by damaging me foot badly and fracturing my wrist. Both of which are currently still recovering :P And were caused from separate silly incidents xD
Have also given up the job search in the city for a little while, but I'll work something out come next year. I think I'm happy working my weekends away in the country :3 for now anyways.
Uni work has been flat out, on a completely different note, tried ice skating lessons, wasn't that great.
Had a revelation the other night, decided to delete facebook and start on a complete remodel of my lifestyle and whatnot :3 I really want to achieve some self goals and get my shite together I've decided. Eg Getting fit, studying more, doing better
Also been seeing an awesome ladeh whom I use to go to primary school with back in the day, she goes to my uni and knows some friends, crazy! Anyways, she's pretty and talkative and really pretty and has an interesting back story. I'm happy to have started getting a connection with someone again and hopefully something good will come of it :) Can't say much more on it for now xP Because I think some things still need to be sorted out xD Seems I'm pretty bad at solidifying relationship status's :P
Still procrastinating, Exercised, learnt some more guitar and am now blogging, time to actually start my homework ^^"
Night Peep(s) :D
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